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[Havik]

Today was pretty boring. I did a bit of sheilding and some Pk. There was a little bit of telepathy on the side. My sheilding is doing great, and my pk is still horrendous. Telepathy doesn't seem to be making much progress either, although I don't really have any uses for it. I guess I could make a use for it, but it's not needed that bad or anything. I want to get my PK better, mainly for my own amusment (yeah, I'm amused easily). Although it's kind of tedious, working with my Pk, and end up not using it for about a week just to have it back to where I started. Which doesn't seem to make much sense to me, but that's okay. Just means I have to constantly work on it.

There are quite a few people out there who want to learn a new ability, and the practice it for about three days (well, that's what I've noticed from the people I teach in my area) and then start asking for all this help, and advice. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with asking for a little advice, although in my honest oppinion, if you want to learn a new ability set one whole month devoted to doing just that. Set certain times during the day, etc, etc. Basically, devote one month to practicing the ability, and more than likely, at the end of that month it will be one of your good abilities. Maybe not perfect (heck, we don't even know what it would be like if we could train an ability to "perfect") but it should probably be at a point where it can be useful in your programming or just day to day things. I would do this myself with PK, but I like my procrastinating lifestyle. I think I am going to have to challenge myself, and really push myself so I can actually do that. Well, if I manage to do that, I guess I'll post it here, not that anyone really reads other peoples Journals all that often, but I might as well to track my progress and see how long it takes for my attention span to run thin. Should be interesting.

Anyway, I'm going to go be awesome now, I'll post again tomorrow.

~ Havik

[Havik]

 So much for posting again on the fourteenth. Oh, well. Anyway, on to business. I haven't really been practicing any abilities (I know, I know. I'll start. -_-) but I did have this rather interesting dream. It reminded me of a way of practicing psionic skills I read about a long time ago. Basically all you do is imagine yourself doing an ability (not to the point where you are like super amazing at it, but as if you were doing it real life. About the same skill level you actually have) and do that for about the normal length of a regular training session.

  The dream I had was pretty strange, but still pretty cool. I was on a boardwalk type of thing, and I happened to notice a pen that wasn't too far away from me on the floor. Instead of going over and grabbing it, I just extended my hand and tried to pull it to me via PK (I do that often in real life just cause ). To my surprise the pen easily draged it self along the boardwalk and up into my hand. I took a few moments to examine the pen (not sure why) and then I thought I would try pulling something towards me without the use of my hand. I just stared at a leaf not far from me. Sure enough the leaf came towards me, not extremely fast, but at a moderate speed. I was pretty happy with myself to be able to do this. I remember feeling the object as I use PK on it. I could feel the smoothness of the pen, and the flexability of the leaf. It felt completely real. When I woke up for a few minutes I thought it was real. I realised rather quickly that it wasn't though. I did however try my PK that morning too. It was substantially better than it was before (not to the degree it was in the dream, but still a bit better. I could make the psiwheel spin, and a pencil shake. I think that this method of practice can be quite effective. However it really shouldn't substitue for normal training (for those of you looking at it as an easy way out. :]) It would I think be a lot more efficient to actually use PK in real life as training, but you can do this anytime your just sitting around and relaxing, in school and taking a brake, anywhere. I'm not entirely sure how this works but our brains are amazing things.

     INTERESTING STUFF HERE =]
        I remember a test that was done among athletes with mental training. They took a handful of athletes and told them they are going to run a track in a couple days, and they aren't allowed to practice or train in anyway for it. They took another handful of athletes and told them the same thing, but these ones were allowed to train, only mentally. They hooked a few of the training athletes up to a machine and told them to imagine running the race on the track in their head. As they were mentally running the track, their bodies fired of the exact muscles at the same time they were running the race in their heads. The race came and the ones that mentally practiced all succeded, and the ones who didn't came before the ones that did in the race. Another test like this was done among these other people. I can't remember exactly what they were doing this for but it has the same idea as the last one. Half of the group imagined they were lifting weights, and they really pretended to lift them. The other group was doing nothing (either that or they were lifting real weights to compare who gets a better work out). At the end of the week of exercise, the ones who had mentally trained had improved on strength about 30%. It's all pretty interesting.

All pretty cool. I think I am going to go mentally practice for a while (sleep =] ) and then I am going to do some PK.

~Havik

[Havik]

 It's been way too long since I've been here. Either way, Im sort of back. I have been practicing other various things during the time I've been gone. Mainly magic though (which involved quite a bit of energy work as well). Lot's of pathworking and the like. Strictly for psionics though I have been working on shields mostly. Probably because I'm paranoid at heart. Not much else to really report. I've noticed I've become a lot more empathic than I use to be. Not entirely sure why but it's really getting annoying being overloaded with different emotions from all over the place. Had an out-of-body experience a little while ago or, atleast, what seemed to be one. Nothing really special happened. I was just walking around my house. I was in my basement and I walked into my brothers room. He is always up late so I saw him using his computer. Couldn't really make out what it was on his screen though. When I tried to go upstairs I ended up waking up due to a rather loud noise from outside of my bedroom window. I suppose two cats got into a fight and one of them just completely flipped out.

 I had a strange dream about a month or so ago. I don't remember the dream. I didn't even remember it the next morning. All I can recall is everytime I woke up that night (I woke up about 7 times, maybe more) I continuously repeated the words, "Sumerian Goddess". Over and over again. I did a bit more research into the Sumerian Patheon the next day and I've not come to any conclusion as to what that might have been about. Someone told me that it is possible one of the Sumerian Goddesses could be my Patron Deity, though I've yet to identify which one. Still thinking about it though. Anyone have an opinion on that?

Anyway, I just stopped by for a quick visit and update, I'll try to come online more often and post. On a side note, I was looking at the old old psiworld website and some of the material I had on there. Good times lol xD

-Havik

[stolide]

Someone told me that it is possible one of the Sumerian Goddesses could be my Patron Deity, though I've yet to identify which one. Still thinking about it though. Anyone have an opinion on that?

A patron diety is one that you devote yourself to. The wording implies that you have devoted yourself to no deity, and therefore the wording implies that this person does not know what they are talking about.

Do you follow a religion of any sort?

[Shinichi]

In some traditions, there are practices that devote the soul to a deity completely--making the devotion last more then one lifetime. If you believe in reincarnation, then, it wouldn't hurt you to look into it a little. But even with that in mind, you are still free to devote yourself--or not, as the case may be--to any deity now, regardless of the past. So while there may be a personal lesson to be had in the pursuit of such a thing, if you don't feel specifically drawn to do so you don't have to follow a deity merely because you dreamed of him or her, or did spiritual practice revolving around him or her in a past life.

It may even only be a purely symbolic association, as many dream related things often are. With that in mind, you may want to perform introspection on what the concept of "Sumerian Goddess" means to you as well.



~:Shin:~

[Havik]

Thanks for weighing in guys.

Someone told me that it is possible one of the Sumerian Goddesses could be my Patron Deity, though I've yet to identify which one. Still thinking about it though. Anyone have an opinion on that?

A patron diety is one that you devote yourself to. The wording implies that you have devoted yourself to no deity, and therefore the wording implies that this person does not know what they are talking about.

Do you follow a religion of any sort?

I've heard of a couple occurences where rather than someone intentionally devoting themselves to a deity, the deity in a way, chooses them. Maybe by dreams or pathworking meditation. Of course it is still up to the person to decide whether or not they want to devote themselves to that specific deity.
On the other hand, that may in a way tie in with Shinichis' reincarnation idea depending on how you look at it. Also to answer your question I'm wiccan.

In some traditions, there are practices that devote the soul to a deity completely--making the devotion last more then one lifetime. If you believe in reincarnation, then, it wouldn't hurt you to look into it a little. But even with that in mind, you are still free to devote yourself--or not, as the case may be--to any deity now, regardless of the past. So while there may be a personal lesson to be had in the pursuit of such a thing, if you don't feel specifically drawn to do so you don't have to follow a deity merely because you dreamed of him or her, or did spiritual practice revolving around him or her in a past life.

It may even only be a purely symbolic association, as many dream related things often are. With that in mind, you may want to perform introspection on what the concept of "Sumerian Goddess" means to you as well.

Yeah, I've thought it may be purely symbolic as well and I've been working on trying to understand what the representation may mean but I'm also open to other possibilities as well such as the reincarnation theory.

[Havik]

Recently my clairvoyance has been getting better, and way more apparent. I'm not able to control when it happens but I don't mind that really. Letting them just hit me at random is always a good way to stand out in public places when you are completely not ready for it.

A lot of visions have been coming to me in my dreams. Nothing overly significant, just small things that happen maybe a day or two later. Like my dog running away yesterday morning. I had a dream that night and saw my dog, happy as can be, standing next to my brother and him explaining to me where he was. Then I woke up and saw my dog, happy as can be, standing next to my brother and him explaining to me where he was. Not exactly the most useful information, but at least I was put at ease knowing he was home when I woke up.
I also recall seeing in a different dream an incredibly large raven flying fast just outside my window near the back door of my house. The raven had stopped mid-air roughly in the center of my view. Like a freeze frame almost. Obviously it isn't one of my little premonitions, or atleast not literally as shown in my dream. I'm not really sure what I would interpret it as. Looking at the dream now though, the bird was flying North, it was a bright day with lots of sunshine, it was a Raven, it was big, and it was "hovering" in place for lack of a better description. North is often associated with the element of earth which brings traits like practicality, strength, the color brown or leafy greens, etc. etc. North from my house, about 5 minutes down the road is the beach. Water largely represents emotions, various hues of blue, Undines, and the like. The sunshine gives me a feeling of masculine energy. There is lore about when a bird is almost hovering in place (like when you see a bird flying against the wind and not really making any progress) it is an indication that someone you are dealing with is not what they appear so beware. Ravens are auspicious in that if met before going up against an obstacle, you will be met with success. Being big could represent the situation that the raven is forewarning about; the situation could just be big in nature. So combining it all the qualities of earth (north) and water (beach) could be details of the challenge or obstacle that the raven warns about. The birds stationary mid-flight position would describe this obstacle revolves around a person. Be it my self or another. It could be a big issue, regarding the ravens unusual size. The interpretation would be warning me of a situation but also implying that I will have success in the end, though not without effort on my own behalf.

Or it could have just been, you know, a dream. One of the two. Can't hurt to look at it both ways though right?

That's about all I could think of writing right now.
~ BB

[Fujin]

I used to have flying dreams non stop a few months ago but they stopped, maybe you know how to interpret that. Good journal by the way. Keep it up.

[Havik]

I used to have flying dreams non stop a few months ago but they stopped, maybe you know how to interpret that. Good journal by the way. Keep it up.

Thanks. I've heard that flying dreams are supposedly Astral Projections you are remembering. Can't say for sure, but it's common to hear that. Also, dreams are pretty individual. It's good to ask for advice about them, but I find interpretation is best done through your own eyes since everyone is different.

I know I've been popping in and out of this site for years but I'm going to try and stay with it for a while

Surprisingly I didn't have one of my crazy dreams the yesterday. I did take some time to do a meditation though. I took some time to relax, taking deep breaths and picturing the colors of the rainbow one by one as I counted down from 12 to get myself in a good relaxed state.
Starting at red, red-orange, gold, yellow, aqua, blue, indigo, purple, violet, and white. I layed there in that state for about 20 minutes before I started to hear a piano playing in my head, crystal clear. We don't own a piano and it was three in the morning so I doubt that someone would be playing one at that time anyway. I do not think I was dreaming because I could still feel my body and was completely aware of my surroundings still. It was actually very good sounding too. I heard that for about 30 minutes before I decided I was going to stop the meditation and go for a walk. Nothing too exciting, though I figured I should write it down in case I want to look back on it again next month to see if it has any real significance. I'll be doing another meditation again today a bit earlier so I might post about it again tonight. I'll start maybe in about 2 hours or so. Until then, I am going to take off and get some more reading down. I ordered about 25 new books online and I've only read through about 4 of them.

Take care
~ Havik. BB

[Havik]

My meditation wasn't anything spectacular this time. Just recharging. No piano music was playing in my head this time, maybe next time. There was an intense feeling on my third eye for a while. That's norma, though when I meditate it gets more intense than usual.

Next month on the 15th is a lunar eclipse, or so I've heard. Seems like a good time to perform some magick. I'm going to start planning for that for the next little while.

That's all I've got, I'll post again tomorrow probably.

~ Havik. BB

[Havik]

My meditation yesterday was the same as usual, so I didn't see any real point in posting about it.
Though I've noticed a trend in my dreams. I've been having a reoccuring dream for the past year now, but never really put much thought into it until this morning (not sure why). It starts with my just outside of a car (last night the car was a brown van) then after talking to this police officer about this one guy that he's looking for (No idea who the guy is) I get into my car once he leaves and I start driving down the road. There's always a red light like one block down from where I am and I try to break but the car just makes a loud screeching noise and I race through the red light nearly hitting this woman. I avoid her but can't seem to stop the car since the breaks are completely shot. It goes on for a while then the dream ends. I'm usually filled with panic the entire time the dream goes. This time however, I managed to stop the car at one point, turned it off and left it. I took a bike home (where I got the bike is beyond me) started heading home and I went over a dirt hill and fell off. Once I got up the bike was now apparently a skateboard which is weird because I hate skateboards and wouldn't be caught dead outside with one. I picked up the skateboard and ran down this feild toward a back gate entering into a neighbourhood. After navigating around in there (it was confusingly set up) I found myself in a Canadian Tire for one reason or another, and saw the guy that the police officer was looking for earlier, attempting to freeze himself to death in one of those fridges at the frozen food section which conveniently, Canadian Tires don't actually have. An old friend of my (whom I stopped associating with since he was a complete fool, and not in the good way.) was calling for me to help, and saw the guy in the fridge and pretty much told him I don't care. He said, " ... Do you know what he's trying to do?", I said, "Yes, and he's tried stuff like this before, I don't have time for this." and I kept going. He called back to me and said, "Yes! Do it!" and I said, "..... do what?" the dream ended. I couldn't help but think, why the hell didn't he just pull him out of the freezer, woulnd't have been that hard.

Man, I am so thankful for the undo. After writing all that my laptop though it'd be funny if it just highlighted and erased it all. -_-

Anyway, I'm working on the interpretation now. Any thoughts are welcome.

~ Havik. BB

[Havik]

I know I've been popping in and out of this site for years but I'm going to try and stay with it for a while

So. I lied. But at least It's only been a month since I popped out again.

Anyway, I did a guided meditation two days ago and ever since I've felt really.. erm, "dreamy" I guess? I feel like I'm in a dream state constantly. As if I've been having a real time dream since tuesday night. After eating and drinking, grounding, centering, shielding and exercising the feeling still remained. I still feel like I'm dreaming, though I'm 92% positive I'm not ( I don't have an actual system for measuring that, 92% just sounded right). Though, thinking about it now, I don't really care about it. Being in this dreamlike state actually feels "comfortable" compared to that of the regular feeling reality gives me. Might as well milk it while it lasts.

As a completely unrelated fun fact of the day; I'm working on my German even more and starting to get quite good at it. I just need to get better and listening and speaking, since I have no one to talk to I'm just good at the writing part.

My intuition is getting a lot 'louder' too. I keep hearing my inner voice saying random stuff about things that are going to happen or are useful bits of information. For example, going through the grocery store looking around for some Aloe vera juice. Walking down one of the isles I get this little 'ping' of sorts telling me, "It's on the right side, very bottom of the shelves, tucked in the back." Sure enough, it's there. Or how when someone phones the house and I know who it is already. Pretty simple stuff, but none the less it pleases me to no end having that little convenience here and there. I suppose this is called Clairaudience, and it's actually proving to be really helpful. I'm also starting pick up and broadcast thoughts accidentally. Not really sure how I'm doing it, so clearly it's happening sub-consciously. Which, while at the moment more of a neat trick than a useful skill, after honing it a bit better it could really come in handy I'm sure.

On another unrelated note, I had made two shields about three to four years ago, pretty much designed to block everything and anything coming from external sources (Stuff from nosy people) and internal sources (stuff I unconsciously send out). Empathic signals, telepathic signals, as much negativity that's humanly possible to block, stuff like that . These shields were programed to go up once I said some keywords for triggers. About two months ago I had noticed that I was using the triggers to put my shields up like every five seconds for reasons ranging from paranoia (I'm infamous for that) to sheer boredom. I was getting kind of worried thinking about it because I thought that may have been blocking some of my natural talents from doing their stuff. Blocking empathic signals from otheres, inhibiting my ability to catch random, but sometimes useful thoughts, maybe some psychic impressions from my surroundings being blocked out because of these shields. Though it had become a sort of addictive habit to call on these shields. So, interested to see if I was right, I reprogrammed the shields so that everytime I use the name triggers the shields would not be constructed and I would get a mental ping reminding me the shields don't work any more. Then I proceeded to take down any shields that were around me and voilà! My clairvoyance started hitting me like two hundred tonnes of bricks, I started picking up random thoughts again (which started getting pretty annoying) and I even appear to be developing a better hold on my telepathy. Yay team.

Oh and as a side note about that last dream I had. I did interpret it, and I felt it was quite the brilliant interpretation if I do say so myself. So brilliant that I wrote the interpretation down, completely forgot what it was, and misplaced my dream journal. It's brilliance could not be contained.

So that's about all that I have to report in the past month that I've not been here. Yup. A whole three things and one story that I could have told people about two months ago. Until tomorrow,

You must construct additional pylons,
Ciao.

[Havik]

Back again.

So the past two days I've been working with my aura and for the heck of it my dogs aura too. Nothing really amazing, just practiced sensing it. Though, after downloading a book on healing, I was looking into the aura some more. I'm studying healing the aura via the Chakras currently, and conveniently have a gemstone for each of the chakras to incorporate into my practice.

This next thing might interest some people who read my journal (if anyone does ) I was researching about aura's and what not and came accross an interesting thing called, Aura Goggles. Here's the skinny on that, Dr. Kilner, a British physician, created chemical dye screens using something called dicyanin dyes. These screens made the human aura visible to the untrained eye. He published a book about his findings and his accurate diagnoses of human illnesses and diseases via the aura called "The human atmosphere". It's available today known just as "The Aura". Anyway, there is a weaker version of those screens he made in the form of glasses. They kind of look similar to those 3d glasses you get in the theatres but the screens on them aren't red and blue.


From what I've heard, people have used these glasses to aid in the training of their eyes to see auras naturally. So I thought I'd order one online from a site devouted to them. I should receive them sometime this week, at the latest next week tuesday. I'll post my experiences with them once I get them in case anyone is interested in knowing. From what I've heard about aura goggles they reveal up to the first five layers of the aura, though sometimes (probably dependent on the persons health and emotional state) you can only see the first three. They costed a measly 25 bucks so I figured why not.

It's a full lunar eclipse tonight too. Great time to do some magick. Where I live I have great visibility of the full moon so I'm going to sit outside on my deck and watch the eclipse. Can't wait to see it

My telepathy has been going off recently again. I noticed it happened when I was with my Mother the other day. Random thoughts that came to my head she would randomly blurt out at almost the same time. It's kind of freaky thinking about it, that I might accidently think a thought loud enough for her to pick up that I might not necessarily want her to hear. Like how I thought the dinner she made that night was almost inedible.

So as I'm sure you probably could have guessed, the shields are going up. Save myself the embarassment haha. Anyway, I can't think of much more to report. I'll be sure to update about the aura goggles for those who might care

Take care
~ Havik

[Fujin]

Great start at the journal, your telepathy is quiet nice. I'd like to read more about the auras since I have no experience in that and would be eager to learn.

[Havik]

Thank you.

I have not received my order for those aura goggles yet, there's a problem with the shipping because of Canada Posts' strike. It should be shipped out pretty soon. I'll probably not receive them until next week. Though I might get them this week if I'm lucky. I'm curious to try taking a picture with a camera looking through the lense of the glasses and see if it produces the same effect when put up to your eye. I don't think it will but if it does I'll upload the picture to give you and idea of what they are like. I'm trying to keep my expectations low for now so I can take a decent objective view at the effectiveness of the glasses as a training tool.

I saw something this morning when I woke up. It wasn't anything specific, it was just my room. I looked to my right and the places that everything was in seemed so incredibly familiar. I remember seeing that exacty 'scene' when I was a child in one of my visions. Which makes me wonder what those visions were even about. None of the visions that I've come to see in my life while growing up has really been all that interesting. Nothing really important happens. I just remember the scene and everything that I do for about the next hour afterward. Nothing really special happens in that hour afterward either. I guess it doesn't have to be special, though I just don't understand why I saw all those images when I was a child. Maybe just to excite a few moments of my everyday life when I recognize one of the visions? I was thinking of finding someone who I could talk to that maybe had similar experiences to me. Though, I don't really see it being all that easy finding someone who had the same experience. I think this is more of an internal thing. There always an action and reaction. The action was me getting whacked with a tonne of visions as a child and the reaction so far has been my questioning it and recognizing the different visions. My biggest question is what caused the action. Which could possibly be completely unexplainable to me within my lifetime. Though, I might as well look into it a bit. Gives me something to do with my spare time. I know I'm kind of just ranting on now about my own little drama going on here but it's a journal, that's what it is for, right?

As a completely unrelated and not all that interesting side note, my aura the other day was bright electric blue. Today it has an almost smoky yellow look to it. Not unlike the look of a tigers eye stone. Anyway, I'm off to right in my other journal. Take care.

~ AO

[Fujin]

You might have precognitive qualities, . I have deja vu happen throughout my life where it might be a coincidence or something else. Where I feel I've sensed or seen things that I've felt happened already before. Those are somewhat considered to be visions as well.

[Havik]

I've always know that I've had precognitive abilities, heck I'm always getting visions and dream precog. It's become like an everyday occurence to know what is going to happen. I just wish some of the stuff I see and know are more... useful?

I've had some things come up recently that have prevented me from doing much online, so I am sorry for the wait but I can finally talk about those Aura goggles things.

Now, the place I purchased these from was incredibly annoying with shipping. It took them over a month to even send me so much as an email about my order. After I sent them a message about contacting the credit card company about the order, I received my order a few days later . (<--- and example of something useful that I could have gotten a precog. Dream about.)

Anyway, these aren't the kind of aura goggles that I expected to receive. Rather than have a smaller version of the chemical dye screens put into those funny looking 3-D glasses you get at the movies like the ones I've read about, they sent me these things which simply had an indigo screen. Nothing special about it other than the colour is indigo. The point of that was the colour indigo relates to the third eye Chakra, and makes it easier for one to view auras.

So I decided to try and use them anyway, to see if it really is anything useful to use for training at all. I'd say it might be useful for someone who wants to train themselves to see auras, but I wouldn't personally recommend it. I put the glasses on, and started to look for auras with my normal technique. They would appear, though there would be no colour to them, and they weren't big at all. I took the glasses off and tried perceiving auras normally. Doing it that way, I could see the auras in colour and they were easier to spot than with those glasses. I find they are more of a hindrance on me than anything else. So all in all, unless I can find the actually stuff that Dr. Kilner used, I would have to saw avoid these things. Even if you can see auras better with them (could be a different experience for you, who knows?), you wouldn't want to develop a dependency on them. It's easier, if you ask me, to just use your natural eyes.

In other news, I've been telepathically suggesting random thoughts to people around me more and more recently. Fun stuff. If I could control it that is. Just kind of happens, especially when I don't want it to.

Not too much else to report about other than that so.. take care.

~ Havik

[Havik]

........

I would just like to say, that if you ever are in need of Cyprus or Civet essential oils, get ready for like a four month search.
I looked EVERYWHERE I could think of. I checked flee markets which had stores which sold litterally nothing but essential oils. I could find musk, vanilla, sandalwood, apple cinnamon, patchouli.... Cyprus and Civet? Sorry, we don't carry things that would be convenient to you.

I looked online too. I found a few sites that sold them, all of which were out of stock. I was hoping to find a website that was based in Canada so I would have to worry about customs charging me. I ended up ordering from a site in the USA, and as such had to get a synthetic because I know that Civet oil as pure civet is illegal to make and have in some places and I didn't want Customs to eat it.

I was so happy that I found the oils I was looking for that I thought, "What the heck, I'll get me a cool T-shirt too!". I got a Thor's hammer T-shirt. Which the website so conveniently forgot to mention was OUT OF STOCK *Seriously mad facial expression!!!!!* So now I'm waiting on them to get there order of the t-shirt in so they can send it to me with a shipping time of about 1 month, and who knows how long customs will hold it just to make me cry. So let's say about two months later.... 6 months after originally wanting those two very small bottles of oil. *crying facial expression*

What I'm trying to get at is essential oils will cost you about 25 souls, and Canadian customs always thinks it would be funny if it just destroyed and delayed everything I hold dear.

On the bright side I got some Yarrow essential oil from a different sight in Canada overnight.... why couldn't it be that easy. *sigh*

So as you might have noticed, I felt like pouting and having a rant. /end rant

I'm getting seriously annoyed with the amount of stray thoughts that the people around me continuously pick up. It's just grand. Can't keep anything secret because I just know that someone is going to eventually hear about that too. I'm pretty stressed right now haha.

In other news, I've found it quite fun to go on those Geocache thingys. They're really fun! Basically, it's an international never-ending scavenger hunt. There are these little Caches of treasures from small (nik naks and little stuffed toys) to large (no idea what are in these, as I've yet to find one since the big ones are always extremely hidden) . The large ones can contain things within that are quite pricey too! The idea is if you find something you like you can take it, but must replace it with something of equal or greater value. There is a notepad with every cache that you can sign to show that you have found it. There are caches all over the place! There are even caches in the antarctic. Every single country has caches in them according to the website. There are three near my house. One that is literally 30 seconds down the road, and another two about 2 minutes away from my house. There are over a thousand in the town next to me.

So I'm taking geocaching up as a hobby and thought, "I need a good hand held gps that can guide me to co-ordinates." I looked online for gps' ranging from $80 - $300. Then, another thought! "What if... now stay with me here!... what if I just.. scanned for the cache instead of using a gps to find the exact area I can find it? Like for example, the one I went looking for later today was in a forest, hidden inside of a hollow stump. I didn't end up finding this one because the Mosquitos made me want to rage quit life, but I probably could have taken a few moments to focus and feel out the cache. Problem is, I have no idea what the cache looks like, what's in it, how big it is, etc, etc. And there is a lot of other trash in the area sometimes so I might pick up multiple things. The one I found earlier today was made of a peanut butter containing, rapped in that camel print military camouflage paper with a hook so it could hand in a cedar tree. Any cache considered "small" could be something like a film canister, or a small tupper ware box thingy. Who knows.

It's really interesting and I recommend people search to see if there are any in their near-by area! It's a lot of fun to go hunting for them, especially the harder to find ones! Scanning might not work so well with all the clutter, but I'm sure you could find a mini gps that could do the trick!

Hmmm, let's see what else it new. Oh yeah. Wouldn't you love it to just wake up in the morning, have your usual lemongrass tea and stand outside on the back deck of your home, take a DEEP breath and feel like you just took a big gulp of water? Have it so dang humid that it makes it feel near impossible to breath with your asthma? Breaking out into a heavy sweat for standing outside for about 30 seconds? Cause I sure do. When that happens, I just think to myself "Today's going to be the best. Day. Ever." Then I collapse due to dehydration.
Seriously, it's about 47 degrees celsius (117 degrees fahrenheit) here with the humidity and in Toronto where my brother lives, it is 56 degrees celsius (133 degrees fahrenheit) or so. Oh it's a blasty blast (of fire and fatal heatwaves).... I want my winter back!!  :'(

I know this post wasn't entirely about my practicing, but it feels good to once and a while write up some stuff to just get it off my mind.
Back on track as of tomorrow.